The Invisible Storm


I am honored to share my interview with Juanima Hiatt, a bighearted, beautiful, empowering woman who courageously shares her experiences with PTSD and her journey to rebuilding her life from the inside out in The Invisible Storm. She writes an uplifting blog and offers a complimentary coaching session to help others create their unique path to healing, balance, joy and freedom. (She welcomes all emails, anytime:

Juanima’s coaching practice, Healing Minds Coaching, LLC, utilizes intelligent questions to empower people to discover their own solutions. As Juanima says, “I have a special place in my heart to help people who suffer from anxiety and PTSD get back on the road as the driver of their life, not the passenger… PTSD robs the sufferer of the life they lived before the trauma. There is no going back, but it is very possible to create a life that is even better than what they had before.”

She leads the first PTSD support group in Hillsboro, Oregon, which is growing fast. Juanima has also teamed up with Susan Ulbright (a gifted LCSW specializing in trauma and PTSD) to develop a 10-week workshop on PTSD and recovery, and another weekend workshop for trauma survivors to rediscover the meaning in their lives. The workshops will be announced sometime in the late summer/early autumn.

The second edition of The Invisible Storm will be released in June, with a list of trigger warnings and new information about recovering from PTSD.

Interviewer: Joanna Celeste


Your book, The Invisible Storm, acts as both champion and confidante for those who have experienced PTSD or sexual abuse. When and how did you choose to share your story?

I knew, even while I was in the pit of despair with PTSD, that I would someday write my story. That day didn’t come until May 2010, however, when I was healed enough to look back at my journey objectively, and from a healthy perspective. My desire in sharing my story is twofold.  PTSD is a horrific experience that people don’t understand unless they’ve experienced it themselves. The only way I could help people really understand PTSD was to bring them deep into my world as I suffered through it. From the emails I get from readers, I know it worked.  There are also many myths and misunderstandings about this disorder, and I wanted to give some truths. I also wanted to bring hope and encouragement to other PTSD sufferers. I wanted to show that if one is willing to do the work, he/she CAN recover.

I like how you made it clear recovery can come in many forms. How did you manage to weave everything together to create such a quilt of your life?

I eventually realized that while my daughter’s birth triggered the onset of PTSD, the true source was the sexual abuse I endured as a child. As difficult as it was to write about the trauma, I knew I had to. However, I also wanted to tell the truth about how difficult it was for me to face the trauma, as I imagine it is for anyone with PTSD. As far as the “sources” I used to write it, I couldn’t have written about my therapy sessions without the notes my friend, Traci, took, because I dissociated so badly in every session. The journal entries helped me relive the depth of pain I experienced, though I admit, at times, I didn’t need any help. Parts of the writing were excruciating. I also asked every family member to read the manuscript before I published it. Some of my family members are not painted in the best light at times, and because I love and care deeply for them, I wanted their blessing to write the hard stuff. I know it could have backfired, but everyone was incredibly gracious in letting the story stand. My therapist explained that their part in the story is critical, because every family will relate in some way to certain “unhelpful” behaviors and misunderstandings. I also asked them to read it so they would finally understand what PTSD was like for me. I got great feedback and validation, and I feel very blessed to have such an amazing, supportive family.

That support structure makes a tremendous difference. How did you research the list of resources at the end of your book?

I found every resource listed to be beneficial to me throughout my healing and recovery. When I was first diagnosed with PTSD, I researched endlessly online to find out everything I could about the disorder, and what I was up against. It helped me—and my family—as I progressively shared what I learned.

Thank you for sharing them with us. The passages you chose at the outset and the end of your book are lovely, and could apply to anyone regardless of their creed. While you depict your relationship with God beautifully, please share with us your connection.

Wow… that’s a great question. I’m thinking about writing another book solely about my journey with God, because it’s been a roller coaster. The interesting part is that God is like the track. He never changes. He stays the same, always. He is strong and secure and holds us up. I was like the car, however, always moving, wildly changing directions, with lots of screaming involved.

There were times in my life, especially during the worst years of abuse, and the worst parts of PTSD, when I felt completely abandoned by God. I cried out to Him but I couldn’t hear Him answer. I felt so incredibly alone. I can even say that when I was sixteen, I hated Him, I was so full of anger at His lack of caring. Or…that’s what it seemed. What I know now is that God is the same whether we believe it or not. He is always with us, whether we feel Him or not. What we think of God manifests from our beliefs about Him. Believing He is there even when we don’t feel Him or hear from Him is called faith. Now, I understand Him. I know He never left me—not once. I know He grieved when others were harming me. I also know that I have lost so much in my life, and have had so much stolen from me, but I am witnessing today the fulfillment of His promise to restore what was lost. It’s really incredible. I love Him with all my heart, and I know He really does have a good plan for each of our lives.

Wow, thank you. What advice would you give to fellow memoirists?

There is so much power in telling your story, whatever it is. Maybe your goal is publication, or maybe it’s just to get your story on paper for your children and/or family. But what’s important is to not put it off. Don’t delay. Your story becomes a timeless legacy for your loved ones, and if you publish it, it just might become a powerful memento or treasure to a stranger you may never meet. One of the most moving statements I’ve received from a reader was, “Thank you for writing this book. I feel understood for the first time in my life.” I mean…wow. That is a priceless gift I will carry with me forever—to know my story impacted someone like that.

Congratulations for making everything work so you could deliver your story into their hands. What was it like to self-publish The Invisible Storm?

I couldn’t have done it without the incredible people in my life. My sister-in-law, Rebecca Reinke-Merrion of Reinke Creative, designed my book cover. She happens to be an amazing graphic designer, and this was her first book project. I also got lucky and found a colleague looking to trade her editing talents for a book review of her recently published book, and she helped me improve the manuscript immensely. My family—especially my dad and stepmom—read the manuscript multiple times to help me perfect the details (and it’s not an easy read, so my gratitude runs ocean deep for the time they dedicated to it, while putting their emotions aside). I actually enjoyed the process of self-publishing. I decided to go that route because I didn’t want to wait two years to see my book on a shelf. I have too many other projects I want to get busy on!

Yes! What has been your marketing plan?

I use social networking a lot, including Facebook, Twitter, and Goodreads. I have found the Goodreads giveaways bring great exposure to my book! I try to blog uplifting and encouraging posts on a regular basis at my author website and I guest blog whenever possible to discuss PTSD and my memoir. I’m very grateful for every opportunity! I also rely greatly on word-of-mouth. I  do book signings, speaking engagements, and interviews, which are also great marketing tools.

What do you hope to achieve with your book and your message, in empowering those who are affected by childhood sexual abuse (not just the children, but all those that these abuses impact)?

First, that healing is possible, but second, that healing is a choice. The terrible risk of living one’s adult life in denial of the past is a later onset of PTSD. We can’t foresee traumatic events occurring in our lives. My triggering event was the traumatic birth of my second daughter in 2003, and then I had no choice but to face my past abuse. I honestly thought I was over it, but I was so wrong. Abuse affects our lives in countless ways, damaging the core of who we are and how we see ourselves, as well as our perceptions of the world around us. Our behaviors stem from our beliefs, and when our beliefs about ourselves and others are tainted, relationships suffer. My goal is to encourage healing not only within the individual who suffered child abuse, but the relationships with their loved ones as well. Everyone in the survivor’s life is impacted by it.

Yes, the “darkness” spills out in sneaky ways; I’m grateful you capture all sides of the issue. From my experiences with PTSD, let me thank you on behalf of our spiritual kin—perhaps all PTSD is its own kind of “soul murder”, and you shine a light on how to recover ourselves to a semblance of a whole. What do you recommend as people seek that balance between who they were before, and who they became after, the PTSD?

“Soul murder” is pretty accurate. I remember saying during the worst years of PTSD, “I just want to be who I was before. I hate who I am now. I feel like a monster! I want my old life back!” What’s amazing to me is how I now read that over and over—verbatim—from other PTSD sufferers.

First, coming to terms with PTSD—for me—was a process much like grieving: denial, anger, bargaining, depression, and acceptance. I went through every stage. I eventually had to accept PTSD, but I also had to accept I would never “get back” the life I had before, or the person I was before. But we are never completely destroyed in this journey.

In the early days of PTSD, I felt like I’d fully lost who I was before, but my little brother made me see that wasn’t true.  PTSD shatters the heart, mind, and even the soul, and yet the core of our being remains—it just becomes overshadowed by the pain and torment of the disorder. But as you recover, and do the work of healing, the shattered pieces start coming back together; only this time, they’re stronger. YOU are stronger. But you have to do the work, and you have to choose every day to do something that moves you towards the person you want to be.

This is what I mean when I say I help people write their new life story. It can seem, while you’re suffering, that life will never get better. It took me a while to grab hold of those reigns and take control again. In these recent years, I started building my life back up again. I kept my vision alive of who I want to be, and stayed determined to never let fear or this disorder keep me from having a fulfilled life. I’m not saying I’m completely free, but my life is so much better, and I’m so much more powerful than I ever was before. My family can attest that all the hard work has paid off. I’m a changed woman, and I’m whole, and I want to remind people that whether we have PTSD or not, we are the author of our own life story. And if you do have PTSD, don’t write yourself that ticket to eternal submission. There is hope for us ALL to recover and have a fulfilled life.

Awesome! On a different note, how is your novel going?

It was put on hold, unfortunately, while I went to school to become a life coach. Now that I’m certified, and my practice is open, I’m working on bringing my passion of writing back. I just can’t stay away from this keyboard for too long! I have a political thriller in development, but I’m also developing a YA novel series. I’m excited about this project, because I have a huge heart for teenagers. Each novel deals with a tough issue such as eating disorders, divorce, domestic violence, abuse, running away, self-harm, etc. I’m close to this because every issue is based on my own life experience. I understand, and more than anything, I want teens to know they’re not alone in their struggles, and there is hope.

Those will be great books, I’m sure. Is there anything else you would like to say?

Thank you so much for this opportunity to share my heart, my experiences with PTSD, and my message of hope. Somebody once said, “You were given this life because you are strong enough to live it.” My life with PTSD didn’t start to improve until I embraced the journey ahead (no matter how long it took), dug my feet in, and gave healing 100%. We are all stronger than we think. PTSD instills a lie that it’s bigger than we are, and our only choice is to succumb to its power. But like I said, that’s a lie. There are answers out there that will take each of us forward. There are tools and resources that will help us in our healing. There are people who care and want to see you recover. I’m one of them. I’m always open and willing to share my experiences with others, whether it’s about healing from childhood sexual abuse, or my journey with PTSD.  You’re not alone in your fight. Don’t ever lose hope for a better, stronger you, and an abundant life. And never, ever give up.

The Summer Called Angel



There’s no shortage of stress, anxiety and fear that underscores every new pregnancy. When a baby makes its debut well in advance of the scheduled due date, the perilous proceedings associated with its survival impose physical, emotional and spiritual challenges on the parents that they could never have anticipated. I interviewed Sola Olu about her debut memoir, The Summer Called Angel as part of the WOW! (Women on Writing) Blog Tour. My book review is at Blogcritics.

Interviewer: Joanna Celeste


Q. You mentioned that it was part of your culture to be strong. What do you consider you have passed down to your children from your (and their) cultural heritage?

A. Funny you asked this – I just had a reprint of my article in In-Culture magazine. Hopefully that will give you an idea.

Q. As someone who visited Zimbabwe when I was just a kid, my impression of the African culture was that of strength, dignity, endurance, compassion. Share with us more about your cultural heritage.

A. Nigeria is part of Africa—so the culture is like that of Zimbabwe—exactly that. Crying, etc., could be seen as a sign of weakness. We are raised to be strong and resilient. The typical response to hard times is “It will be better or it will become better”. Things like panic attacks are not even discussed, which is why I mentioned it in my book… it does happen. The culture is changing to be more accepting thankfully.

Q. Yes, you shared your experiences with PTSD in your book. What ultimately helped you overcome those panic attacks?

A. I saw a therapist on the advice of my dad. She helped desensitize me by exposing me to driving in the spots I feared. It took a while. It took me 3 years after the birth of my son to get back to driving on the highway.

Q. That’s great you were able to push through. This is a day [Valentine’s Day] that celebrates love, albeit commercially. Your story is that of exceptional love—between you and your husband, the two of you and your children, your family and you, and your relationship with God. How did you draw strength from this tapestry of love?

A. Just knowing I wasn’t alone, my husband was there and that God in a mysterious way was still watching over us, even though I went through periods of frustration and doubt. We had to be there for our daughter and that’s what we did, I think that’s what any parent would do.

Q. Yes, but it doesn’t make what you and Chris pulled off any less miraculous. What did you hold on to when your faith wavered, when you were spent of all you could possibly give, and there was truly no hope?

A. Some form of inner strength, at other times, just sheer numbness, just surviving day to day. It’s like being in a dangerous place and your survival instincts kick in. I knew there was an ending; I just didn’t know at some points what God’s will was.

Q. I could appreciate your experiences through your raw descriptions; your ability to capture the miracle of life was intense (sometimes painful) but beautiful. Your blog conveys your generous spirit, your playful verve employed in tackling challenges, and your attitude towards the things you seek to discover and change. What is your writing process for your blog posts?

A. Thanks for visiting my blog. As you can see I stopped in 2010, due to work, trying to get my memoir published and other life commitments. I have now restarted it with renewed energy, and my aim is to blog about whatever comes my way in my new journey as an author, the good, the fun, and the bad.
My process /schedule should be the weekends – one posted and one written to be posted mid-week. I haven’t achieved that yet, so I try to post whenever I can. I mostly write at night after my kids go to bed. If I can nail the weekend schedule down, I should be good.

Q. In your blog, you refer to yourself as a recovering procrastinator. How have you organized yourself to juggle your family, your new book release, work and your volunteer efforts?

A. I’ve divided my time into chunks –during the day, early evening, and late night, and of course weekends. Each item has its own time slot.

Q. Smart! You also mentioned that publishing your memoir is the fulfillment of a lifelong dream to become an author. It’s difficult enough to write a fictional story, but piecing together all the medical records, the memories, and reliving experiences so you could convey what you felt in that exact moment—that must have taken extreme courage and dedication. How did you write your memoir (did you use storyboarding, index cards, etc.)?

A. No I didn’t—no formal beginning or planning here. My memoir initially started as something to write and read to my daughter when she was older, then as the hospital stay became longer, it became more than that. I started and stopped several times, depending on where we were with her complications. A lot of it also came from sheer memory—I can still remember certain scenes vividly, and certain words even up to today. I guess writers don’t forget… the pain fades but the memory is there.

I thought it might become a book when the title came to me, but I didn’t really seriously consider that until she was safely home and then I felt I could inspire people with her story of survival so I restarted with that aim. It took forever because I’m a working mom; then came my second pregnancy and ultimately that story was added in.

Q. Your book covers how your title came about on page 100, but would you share the story with us?

A. The title came to me in conversation one day, when my husband and I were leaving the hospital. I noticed the leaves were turning orange—it was autumn and I asked my husband what happened to summer, it felt like we didn’t have a summer. He responded that we did indeed: “we had a summer called Angel”. I thought “hmmm… that might be a good title for a book”. (At that time I didn’t know what the ending would be.)

I always dreamt of being an author and have several unpublished works, but it was by accident that my memoir helped me fulfill that dream.

Q. Congratulations! As you wrote, God often works in mysterious ways. In your blog, you shared some of your experiences self-publishing (that your process took two years and you went through five editors, and the stream of never-ending issues there were to deal with), as well as some of your lessons learned. What advice would you give to others just starting out in self-publishing?

A. It takes time, and you do almost all the work—I wouldn’t use the editing process of the self-publishing company again. That process did not work for me. My subsequent editors were great, with each one finding different issues, but I believe I still have a lot to learn in the editing process.

Q. Thank you. What has been your most effective marketing strategy?

My website, Facebook fan page, author sites, interviews with targeted groups and of course the [WOW! Women on Writing] blog tour.

Q. Did you contact WOW!, schedule interviews, and set up your own site?

A. Yes, I contacted WOW, they set up the blog tour, and I set up my own site using GoDaddy products. It’s a constant work in progress 🙂

Q. Thank you. Your epilogue referred to your children as toddlers. Please tell us more about how they are now.

A. They are both doing very well. Thank you. Lani is a thriving, inquisitive kindergartner. Angel is a beautiful 8 year-old third-grader thriving and enjoying life. She is an excellent reader and enjoyed the book a lot—she has her own copy. She graduated from all the services, though we still have a doctor’s appointment once a year to monitor her vitamin levels due to the surgeries.

Q. Yay! What are your plans for the three children’s books that you have stuck in a drawer?

A. Working on one of them next!!! Stay tuned.

Q. You’ve mentioned you may go the traditional route for your next book – is that referring to your children’s book? What are your plans for the traditional route? (Have you made any contacts who are interested?)

A. Not yet… I’m doing a lot of research, compiling lists of agents, etc. I also plan to attend a writers conference very soon. I’m looking forward to learning a lot from that. It’s the same one I went in 2010 that helped me decide to publish, so I’m very excited. Yes this is for one of the children’s books.

Q. Awesome! I loved your blog post on the seasons of life. How would you describe this season?

A. Very fulfilling… very, very fulfilling. I’ve always loved to write and like so many of us, we go on several detours on our journeys. I believe I am back on track and using the talent that God gave me.

Q. Congratulations. I’m truly happy for you, after everything you have experienced and how you have turned those dark moments into something beautiful. What is your favorite motto?

A. Dream it, write it down, make it happen. There used to be a magazine that featured people in a column with that title, I can’t remember which.

Q. What a great motto. You’ve talked about how you volunteered to help parents who find themselves in your shoes. How do you advise parents struggling with premature births, preeclampsia, or the various mental, spiritual and physical challenges associated with “difficult births”?

A. It’s difficult to advise because all situations differ, even with premature births. Be strong, be an advocate, do your own research, seek second opinions, and, if applicable, pray that God’s will be done. That was my father’s advice when I didn’t know what to pray for.

Q. I appreciate it. Your supplementary essays and the poem were a lovely close to your journey. Please share with us the one thing you hope that everyone—regardless of their experience with premature births or not—takes away from your book The Summer Called Angel.

A. Miracles do happen, but sometimes other things happen that are beyond our comprehension. I have learnt that we can’t have all the answers, at least not in this life. Always have hope—no matter how difficult—and this is something I tell myself constantly. I have seen others have hope, even when I’ve been weak, and I think it serves as a buoy.